Everyone loves a fucking tragedy.

Fri, 12 Jun 2009 08:19:25 GMT

Sending documents to my lawyer;
going to get through this for sure.

Keep talking shit
it'll just get you in more trouble ^__^

there is too much to say for me to go away

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 03:57:37 GMT

Because I'm sick of runnning and hiding everything I do on the net.
Not anymore.
Spaz is drunk, on ambien, has to go to court tomorrow but most importantly, she's back, bitches!
Who said rock bottom can't be glamourous!
Tune in later .for all the wacky stories of beth/spaz as she tries to continue to be a normal human wormbaby! Evading arrest1 baseball bats! You will all see, very soon

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 18:01:55 GMT

This journal is now officially closed.

its really depressing that I have to do this, but I find no other way to go about this than to remove this and all other of my 'publically known' accounts. Sorry.

the end

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 17:46:05 GMT

my writing has gone dry

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Mon, 22 Sep 2008 03:44:06 GMT

I'm convinced I become somewhat manic at night. Before I go to bed I always seem to find 100 things I need to do, right away.

RIP

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 04:10:02 GMT

One year ago today, my best friend died.

All we can do now is learn from it. Drugs are bad, mmmkay?

Sat, 13 Sep 2008 01:51:35 GMT

I'm really hungry and there's no food in the house and I have no money because I just bought an iphone and paid all my bills. Was that sentence run on enough for you?
So I quit smoking, and I'm pretty scared I'm going to balloon up to 500 pounds by eating instead of smoking. Well, I only kinda quit because I'm on the patch.

Umm, I really want to move out even though it isn't financially possible right now and I'd be digging my own grave, really. Sometimes I really think that if I moved into a little apartment in Boston and got a kitten I'd really, really be happy. Even if I were eating ramen noodles and working a shitty job. I'd be happpieeee.

Then I remember that I'm a prissy bitch.

I'm looking for a second job. Why won't anyone hire me? Oh, right, I have 12 piercings and no social skills. my b.

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 18:02:43 GMT

I'm finally throwing all of my old stuff out in anticipation of the yard sale and moving into my brother's room.

For most of my life, I've been a hoarder. Not in the 'packrat' sense, but in the actual OCD sense. I used to have horrible OCD when I was little, mostly with anxiety. I used to count every step I make and I wouldn't eat the last piece of candy I had because I was afraid it would kill me. And I wouldn't throw ANYTHING OUT. Papers, cards, CANDY, weird pamplets, ectect. Drawings, letters I wrote in emelentary school, graded papers from elementary school... I'm pretty much better now. I still have to have everything even and I have to be clean at all times, but atleast I'm not keeping anything.

But it's hard to throw anything out still. I want to take pictures of everything, even. I found these old 'Worry Dolls' my mom bought me. You're supposed to tell them all your worries (mine were mostly about my mom and cats dying, still) and keep them under your pillow and they'll make all your worries go away. But I decided they were EVIL dolls and would make everything die, so I put them in my dresser drawer and cried for hours and called my mom at the supermarket (yeah, I would call the fucking supermarket and have them page her) and told her not to die. Yeah, neurotic doesn't begin to cover it motherfucker. I'm still afraid everything is going to die or leave, but now that I've experienced it more (Mike, Tommy, John) I'm more accepting of it.

I'm throwing out all the letters and cards John sent me. I can't even bring myself to look at them. They're gone.

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Wed, 10 Sep 2008 03:21:11 GMT

I think my problem with sleep currently is that its not that I can't sleep, but that I don't want to or im afraid. I could be more productive without sleep

Fri, 29 Aug 2008 18:22:12 GMT

Costume ideas I'm toying with for halloween;

Alice in Wonderland
Red Riding Hood
Catwoman

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Wed, 27 Aug 2008 16:35:36 GMT

I slept on my back completely wrong. I can't even pick up any of my cats. I might go visit pinkerton today... ahahaha

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Sun, 24 Aug 2008 17:54:52 GMT

I feel awful. I can't sleep, but im not entirely awake. I have a headache and im terribly heartbroken

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 03:30:01 GMT

I made a black hairpiece, I'm wearing it right now. I thought it was a much better option than dying my hair or 10$ a piece so-cap extensions. I just wish the ends didn't look so fake; I need to make an effort to cut the ends better.

It came out so well I'm thinking of making some to sell. I know selling hair extensions is such a trend but I found myself enjoying making it and I have so much fucking extra hair that it can't hurt to make a few pieces and sell them for $10 or something. I have blonde and black so I guess I can make colors or whatevaaa.

So what exactly IS my motive?

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 04:16:35 GMT

So sleepy.

Spent the last two days cleaning the house for Brian's going away party and my 'I get my own room' party.

My brain is melting. Surly. Surely. Whatever. I need to start selling hairpieces because it's the only thing besides makeup I don't want to stab myself while doing.

I think my mom's brain is melting because she's walking around saying 'I love you' incessently, but such things aren't as abnormal as they should be.

I'm sick of sleeping in the livingroom because everyone sits on that goddamn couch, so I've become very terrortorial. No one sits there. I sleep. No one touches where I sleep. I'll get my room soon, and you'll get your couch back safe and sound...

Things melt, I be rollin' dirty. Thug liffeee.

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Sat, 23 Aug 2008 04:09:19 GMT

Trying to post using txtlj... ugh

I don't need anything at all.

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 19:58:35 GMT

My voice just echos off these walls..

Hate Post

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 06:18:53 GMT

Hello!
Do you think that I'm a stupid, fat, clown-faced bitch? Do you feel the need to scrape the makeup off my face with a hamburger-flipper? Do you fight the urge to trip me as I walk across campus in my thigh-highs? Do you believe I'm a stupid Japanophile who needs to get out more often? Think I should grow up and stop being such a bitch?
Well, this place is for you!
Seeing as I'm getting an obscene amount of personal insults on my secrets post, here you may comment- unsigned- with why you think I need to throw myself off the Brooklyn Bridge. Don't hold back! Go ahead and vent out your jealousy. But don't think your comments will have an effect on me, because I'll probably just be sitting here laughing at you.

Do it!

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 00:54:07 GMT

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me abut your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back here. Tell me how much you hate me. How much you love me. Tell me anything.

Post anonymously. Speak honestly, because there isn't any censure here. Post as many times as you like. One faceless wonder to another.

And then, pass it on.

Wed, 04 May 2005 21:04:29 GMT

Me as Samara/Sadako on Friday.

AMANDA AS SAILOR SATURN YAY! She's the one with the [accurately] short skirt and the thing.

AWESOME Bakura cosplayer. YAY!

Don't know who it is, but the costume was seckz.

ESPA ROBA! YAY!

Espa Roba Vs. Bakura.

HITOMI! <3333333333333333

GUNSLINGER GIRL?

SHELLY [Shuichi] AND HER FRIEND! <33333333333333

A really good Itachi cosplayer with Sasuke. Those are contacts, not red eye. :O!

MOOGLE/ALYSSA! <33333333

SECKZ.

I LOVE his wig so much.

THEY EVEN SUNG THE TEAM ROCKET SONG! :D

<33333 REVOLUTIONARY GIRL UTENA.

Hitomi and I. xD

ICHIGO! She was so cute.

FLIP OFF THE CAMERA!

I made my brother take this when I got home. I always thought Sadako holding a balloon was funny.

Sasuke X Sakura. They were an actual couple, not posing. ^^

GRAAAAH I LOVE HER WIG AND OUTFIT.

MOLLY [Yami Malik AND SHIBBY [Wiggless Thief King Bakura]! YAY! <333333333333333 We had much fun.

SHE CAN DO THE TONGUE THING! YAY!

Another Bakura cosplayer. I love how he did his wig! D:!

MY FAVORITE NON-MAIN-CHARACHTER FROM HELLSING! YAN! YAY!

Yami Malik eats at Dunkin Dounuts. So now you know.

AYA! HEEEE. The only Aya I saw there, though. ;;

THE CAPE GOES FOOOFH.

DIGIMON [I think?]

ANOTHER UTENA! :D

MANAAAA!

Bakura endorses Pocky, and Sailor Saturn, Diet Pepsi. Oh yeaaah.

GAIA STAFF! God, I forgot the other two people's names and I'm too lazy to find them, but the one on the far left is Noraboo.

TOWER OF CUPS.

He knocked it down after that. ;;

NARUTO PHOTOSHOOT!

LIRL He ran forward and fell face first. On purpose, [I hope].

D: OH DEAR Sakura gets revenge.

t3h FANS!

ENERGYYYYYY.

HITOMI AS ITACHI!

The AWESOME Bakura cosplayer and I. ^^

KAT AND SHAY! Don't ask me who they were, because I forgot.

KYO AND CYBERPUNK CHII?

TWO LITTLE SAILOR SCOUTS! So very cute.

LIRL DR. BOX PICKED ME UP.

D: I don't want to know how long it took to get her face black.

ANOTHER LITTLE RIN! ^_^

EDWARD! He won a contest for his costume.

^_^ She got a Saturn Plushie from a Sailor Moon collector pannel.

I LOVE HIS WIG. He was really awesome, too.

I LOVE YAOI MAN! Even if he IS really creepy and perverted.

Sailor Moon shoot. ^_^

PUR-TAY!

ANOTHER MANA!

I forgot the name of his character. X_X But I got to pet him.

LIRL She didn't have a Rod, so I had her pose with Amanda's half broken one.

ANOTHER BAKURA! I think this one cosplayed last year, too.

MOOGLE, AMANDA, ME AND HITOMI! ^_^! We had so much fun. <333333333

I lost the sweat drop after these pictures were taken. ;;

...I wanted to reinact the falling-down-the-stairs scene right before the Egyption Arc.

...The other side broke off when I got home. ;; MUST FIX SO AMANDA DOESN'T KILL MEEEEEE! X_X

I look so dead in that picture because I didn't sleep the whole night on Sunday. X_X

...I had to do it.
Sorry I didn't cut the pictures at first, I had erased all the text by mistake and when I did it over, I forgot to put the cut in. X_X

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 23:49:25 GMT

Everyone who reads this, post anonymously a secret or a confession or a fear or ANYTHING! EVERYONE!

The story of Little Red Raver Girl.

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 00:27:15 GMT

Lil red raver girl
Once upon a time, cuz, heck, what better time than that, there lived Little Red Raver Girl. She was a happy little girl who loved to wear baggy overalls and the grooviest striped shirts. Her red pigtails and keen shoes could charm the Blow-Pop (tm) out of any raver's mouth.
Well, it seems that Little Red Raver Girls's promoter grandmother was not feeling so hot cuz an event she was throwing wasn't going so great. Little Red Raver Girl decided to take a skippity trip over to her grandma' s house to deliver some lollipops, a new whistle, and a hit of X. She only wanted Grandma Promoter to feel better. :)
Little Red Raver Girl set out into the scary city with a warning from her tired out hippy mother, who warned her of the evils of the world. As usual it went in one ear and out the other. Little Red Raver Girl only wanted peaz and unity and didn't like to hear about the bad people out there because they gave off such bad vibes.
Hippity, trippy skipping down the avenue whistling some housy, funky toon, Little Red Raver Girl hardly noticed the Big Bad Gothic Girl come out of the shadows of an alley.
"Whoa!" said Little Red Raver Girl, "You put quite a fright into me!"
"Yeah, whats new?" angrily replied the Big Bad Gothic Girl.
"Hey, you wanna sticker? I got heart stickers!! Or how about a lollipop?" asked Little Red Raver Girl.
"Nah, I don't want no fucking lollipop," gothically replied Big Bad Gothic Girl. "Where you think you're headed to in this dark, cold, damned, miserable world of ours??"
"Well," said Little Red Raver Girl, "i'm off to see Grandma Promoter to deliver some goodies so she can be happy and throw the phattest event this side of the world."
"Big event eh?" interestingly replied Big Bad Gothic Girl. She thought to herself, "Hmmmm....you know I bet if I get those goodies I could throw a dark, scary event the way I want it."
"Well, I best be off now. Peace, love and unity to you Ms. Gothic Girl."
"Uhh...yeah, sure. (now where the hell did Justin Goodrich go?) "
And Little Red Raver Girl was off. But so was Big Bad Gothic Girl. Seeing as how she hung out in dark alleys all night she happened to know a shortcut to Grandma Promoter's warehouse. She sped ahead to beat Little Red Raver Girl there.
Little Red Raver Girl continued on her way wondering why someone would paint their face chalk white and wear all black clothing on such a beautiful day. Just as she was daytripping this she ran into a funky phresh young man stepping from a record store.
"Yowza!" exclaimed Little Bloo DJ Guy, "Sorry about the bumping action there."
"Oh excuse me! I wasn't watching where I was going. Would you like a sticker? A lollipop?"
"Yeah! Sure! Thanks a lot!"
"Here ya go," said Little Red Raver Girl as she stuck on a groovy frog sticker onto Little Bloo DJ Guy's chest. She hands him a lollipop and asks, "Are you a DJ by any chance?"
"I certainly am! In fact i'm supposed to be spinning later at Grandma Promoters event. You going??"
"Yesssss!!! I'm her granddaughter! I'm Little Red Raver Girl! I bet you are Little Bloo DJ Guy then!" exclaimed she. Quite a good guess too seeing as how he had on a bloo hoody shirt with "Bloo DJ" in holographic type on it. She's quite the quick witted one ya know. :)
"Yep! That's me! I'm sooo happy to meet you! Hey, I gotta run but i'm going over to Grandma Promoter's Houze of Funky Toons for the Pre-Party, so I hope I see you there," said Little Bloo DJ Guy.
"You sure will. Be seeing you later!" happily exclaimed Little Red Raver Girl. And off went Little Bloo Dj Guy. Little Red Raver Girl breathed a sigh, for Little Bloo DJ Guy was sooo sweet and just the nicest guy she had met in the longest time. She really wanted to hear him spin and get to know him better. "Maybe at the pre-show," she excitedly thought.
[Meanwhile...]
Back at Grandma Promoter's Houze of Funky Toons, the bass was bumping as Grandma prepared for the rave and was stressing hard getting ready for the show. Then, all of a sudden a "ding, dong, boom boom boom" came from her specially designed doorbell.
"Who is it??" asked Grandma Promoter.
"Tis me! Little Red Raver Girl" replied a slightly gruff and not quite happy voice.
"I best let her in to help me and cheer her up. She sounds as bad as I do!" thought Grandma Promoter to herself and opened the door.
As soon as she had in leaped Big Bad Gothic Girl and she quickly tied up Grandma Promoter in a extra long pair of fishnet stockings and handcuffed her to the sink in the bathroom with her handcuff belt.
"You can't do this! It doesn't promote peace and unity!" cried Grandma Promoter. "Lemme go and i'll hook you up with a hit of X and you can dance all night with us and feel the groove. I guarantee you'll feel better."
"Nice try grandma. Stuff it," and Big Bad Gothic Girl promptly crammed a black candle into Grandma Promoter's mouth to quiet her down. She then went on to change the music to something much less happy and got into some of Grandma's clothes. "Ick...these are soooo bright and happy. I think i'll throw up."
At just about the time she was done there came a sound in the warehouse, "ding, dong boom boom boom."
"Yeah, who is it??" asked Big Bad Gothic Girl who was now dressed like Grandma Promoter.
"It's me!! Little Red Raver Girl!!" came the reply. "Let me in Grandma! We need to change that music and make you feel phresh!"
Big Bad Gothic Girl opened the door and let Little Red Raver Girl in.
"Why Grandma! What a pale, icky, clammy white face you have!" said Little Red Raver Girl.
"The better to scare you with my dear." came the reply.
"Why Grandma! What morbid, black fingernails you have!" exclaimed Little Red Raver Girl.
"The better to scratch off your face with you little happy hippie wanna be!!" yelled Big Bad Gothic Girl and she LEAPED from her baggies and pounced on Little Red Raver Girl.
Just at that moment the door swung open and in sped Little Bloo DJ Guy with his patented Bag O' DJ Music. He rapidly threw on the phattest of toons and started spinning and cutting it up as best as he could.
As he did this, a strange feeling overcame Big Bad Gothic Girl. She felt a pumping bass shaking her body. She felt a warmth overcome her entire soul. She wanted to stop almost, but she couldn't help herself from getting up off of Little Red Raver Girl and dance. She got down. She boogied. She threw massive moves. Little Red Raver Girl rushed to the john and freed Grandma Promoter. They went out to the dancefloor right as a large crowd had gathered at the door. The pre-party was in full effect and at the heart of it was Big Bad Gothic Girl dancing everyone into amazement. She gave everyone a hug and some a kiss she felt so good. The vibe was the best they had ever felt that night. Grandma's event went off like never before and was of legend promoter proportions. Little Bloo Dj Guy spun his best set and fell deeply in love with Little Red Raver Girl to everyones happiness.
And they lived happily ever after.
T h e E n d.

12 Reasons Why Gay Marrige Shouldn't Be Legal

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 20:45:43 GMT

1. Homosexuality is not natural, much like eyeglasses, polyester, and birth control.

2. Heterosexual marriages are valid becasue they produce children. Infertile couples and old people can't legally get married because the world needs more children.

3. Obviously, gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

4. Straight marriage will be less meaningful if Gay marriage is allowed, since Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage was meaningful.

5. Heterosexual marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are property, blacks can't marry whites, and divorce is illegal.

6. Gay marriage should be decided by people, not the courts, because the majority-elected legislatures, not courts, have historically protected the rights of the minorities.

7. Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire counrty. That's why we have only one religion in America.

8. Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

9. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

10. Children can never suceed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why single parents are forbidden to raise children.

11. Gay marriage will change the foundation of society. Heterosexual marriage has been around for a long time, and we could never adapt to new social norms because we haven't adapted to things like cars or longer lifespans.

12. Civil unions, providing most of the same benefits as marriage with a different name are better, because a "seperate but equal" institution is always constitutional. Seperate schools for African-Americans worked just as well as seperate marriages for gays and lesbians will.

By Omichan

-Falls over laughing- I gotta show my insanely conservitive, anit-homosexual mother this.

Mon, 19 Jan 2004 08:33:46 GMT

I didn't write this, I found it in someone profile, but I thought it was great and I wanted to post it here:

I'm a human being. Human beings have evolved from a common ancestor with the apes. We tend to forget that we are animals ourselves, and we distance ourselves away from other animals. We call describing animals with emotions and intelligence anthropormophizing because seemingly only humans can have these abilities. When are we going to realize that we are animals?

Once we realize that we're animals with animal emotions, intelligent, and needs, we could come to grip with reality. We don't have to deny ourselves anymore. Maybe we'd respect and protect nature knowing that not only we're apart of it, but our evolutionary siblings also enjoy and thrive on the land we call our home.

Please, do us all a favor and protect the earth. The world of biological creatures depends on us not to fuck it up for the all of us.

Wed, 26 Nov 2003 20:29:34 GMT

20 Things To Do When Seeing LotR: ROTK

1. Stand up halfway through the movie and yell loudly, "Wait... where the hell is Harry Potter?"

2. Block the entrance to the theater while screaming: "YOU SHALL NOT PASS!" After the movie, say "Lucas could have done it better."

3. At some point during the movie, stand up and shout: "I must go! Middle Earth needs me!" and run and try to jump into the screen. After bouncing off, return quietly to your seat.

4. Play a drinking game where you have to take a sip every time someone says: "The Ring."

5. Point and laugh whenever someone dies.

6. Ask the nearest ring-nut if he thinks Gandalf went to Hogwarts

7. Finish off every one of Elrond's lines with "Mr. Anderson."

8. When Aragorn is crowned king, stand up and at the top of your lungs sing, "And I did it.... MY way...!"

9. At the end, complain that Gollum was offensive to Ethiopians

10. Talk like Gollum all through the movie. At the end, bite off someone's finger and fall down the stairs.

11. When Shelob appears, pinch the guy in front of you on the back of the neck.

12. Dress up as old ladies and reenact "The Battle of Helms Deep" Monty Python style.

13. When Denethor lights the fire, shout "Barbecue!"

14. Ask people around you who they think is the next "Terminator" sent from the Middle Earth of the future to assassinate Frodo Baggins

15. In TTT when the Ents decide to march to war, stand up and shout "RUN FOREST, RUN!"

16. Every time someone kills an Orc, yell: "That's what I'm Tolkien about!" See how long it takes before you get kicked out of the theatre.

17. During a wide shot of a battle, inquire, "Where's Waldo?"

18. Talk loudly about how you heard that there is a single frame of a nude Elf hidden somewhere in the movie.

19. Start an Orc sing-a-long.

20. Come to the premiere dressed as Frank N Furter and wander around looking terribly confused.

...xD

[Stolen from: http://www.deadjournal.com/users/night_child]

Tue, 24 Jun 2003 02:34:39 GMT

Sweetness51487: me and nicole are gonna own a radiostation when we grow up and ur gonna be on it your sectoin is called the stonner conner!
Sweetness51487: and were gonna like get drunk like every nite!
Sweetness51487: and the next morning will b called the hang over hour!